I'm not feeling bad but really really sad. I understand how difficult I am but really hard to find a friend who can share with. I will but won't easily share myself, my feeling, my emotions, my thinking. I can barely tell u what I am or what I will, just give me some time. My stubborness doesn't allow me to change my behaviour or action or inner me so rapidly. I change because I feel that it is possible and important. I am sad because my result is not expected. I've give in a lot of effort which others sees like nothing at all. I am sad. Time should proof me right.

I should have gone to Church today. I should have thank God saving my life and my friend's which I nearly crash into others ytd, I'm talking about road accident. Twice a night, doesn't it scarly? No speeding, no rushing, no shortcuts, I might. sigh ~~ Time will have me easy..